Okie guys at time I will blog through my phone is easy and just want to share my vacation or trip to Bali . It was really amazing with bunch of my good buddies and my sis <3 it😊 here are the shot for your lovely eyes
Sunday, February 26, 2012
Am watching the movie again!
Okie here is the thing am watching Blue Valentine again today they showed on FMP channel, i make my sister to turn the channel for the sake of the movie. Well whenever i watch the movie i was a bit afraid of relationship and marriage, lots of question running in my head not blaming the movie; the morale of the stories make anyone to think how does the relationship fails? when does one felt there is nothing between them? and when they felt it over?
While i was watching i asked my sister the question, and her respond was a simple as "when the women fail to keep the intimate with the man after their babies that when the breaks up takes place" so i was like how trues was that; is not her choice to act such, but even the society does that "no holding hands in front of their children' this is the indian culture most of the time but again think about it i still feel there is something more than that in both parties, like people said need to find someone whom really loved you, tolerate, to make this journey happen and end it happily. So, i decided to put myself in the situations woah for second i go blank..really i don't know how do i start a perfect relationship moment or make this thing happen or what if am the one will be the cause of the break in couple of years. Gosh think about it freak me out, trust me am afraid of marriage when there is match making moment i freak out not that am nervous or shy, is just am scared to meet an unknown person and start a new life with him without even know what exactly this whole thing is. Am scared for a realtionship till today not that i don't want too, is just i don't want be the cause of the pain of anyone.
To be honest most of the time when i watch the movie it freak me out and make me think a lot about my future how this gonna happen, and where it gonna take place and whom will involve. It scary but has to face it, if anyone ask me i have the courage to do it it i will say "NO". I RE-RE-REALLY want those who follow my blog or accidentally came across this blog, do watch the movie and you will definitely understand what i really meant and feel deep inside!
Monday, February 20, 2012
Yes Or No
I never thought it would be like this; seriously life is just so unpredictable most of the time. Coz most of them whom used to be claim as single now getting married bit by bit all gone in the name of "marriage" not upsetting or what is just i felt lots of things change when time past..
Likewise everyone i had a crush with a couple of guys after my "ex" and yeah things never work as it suppose to be and am just wondering why it has to be such. Knowing my "ex" for about 4 years not more than love or lust is more than anything else for me but it did not work such a way for him he left me and move on as for the reason shit that never asked. When i geared for the next guy in my life i don't get the hint "WHY" seriously i don't know till today. The two chindian guy i had crush on, a waste of time i suppose and i did not try it harder? well if that the cause how hard should i try and what the level hardest i should go? i have no answer for that, so who could i asked for? i don't know either...when i asked for help and advise i not favorable that like triple negative which am afraid to take the risk, i lost both literally and now what is next?
While thinking and sighing...got a whatsapp message from a friend it goes like " damn in relationship too but too much of problem, single life is too good" LOL! i go like huh what? Seriously what geez! Well in my dictionary it alwiz healthy to have someone special in our lives coz we might never know who gonna leave us next, when there is someone like "him / her" there won't be an emptiness in our journey, will not be complete either but it keep us going. Am not too sure where mine gonna pop's out but trust there is someone out there is just not the rite time i think that i what i been telling to myself for the past 4 years...
Am not sure if this is the song i want to attach along this but i felt it make me ease
Wednesday, February 1, 2012
The day all those lovers spend their money is around the corner...
Can you guys guess what i tried to meant by the title? Well is the month of february which means it Valentines Day, am seeing the promo on TV and everywhere..sheesh. Not that am against this celebration is just I never celebrate Valentines day before even when i have my ex or even now (much worst). Every single year i will tell to myself that i will find someone honestly i did eventhough i tried to pretend i don't feel like that but it never happen most of the times, this time around am just gonnna fuck it and go for my haagen daz all alone. I was thinking to do that actually is just that to ease myself nothing much. Well am just hoping one day i will celebrate with the one. Yeah with the one. One point of the time am just again wondering when is this "one" will pop out, god why are you making life so complicated by making person like me to wait for long. Just wondering when!
Anyway Happy Valentines to all!
