Oh my gosh is been a year! Sheesh!!!

Guess what is been almost a year since the last I wrote on this blog, I don't know where to start now but yes I will do what I can. Well 2014 not a bad year or good year but somehow average I would say. Too many things happen and I don't know why it has to be happen, I wish I can ask why but I know I will never get an answer out of it example men's what can I say, my weakest point of all especially those that give little spark and leave behind tons of pain..I just hate the sight of it. Lesson to learn and move didn't I ever learn doubt it so???

Anyway 2015 started with all the prettiest thing until my mum pass on, I can tell you the impact is crazy. I can feel and see it like now, it bother me so much at times I can't concentrate. Well that one part of the story of 2015, the other part is about this guy Nesh. Another love story? Ahahah I know right, how do you react to a guy that you randomly check out for no reason and you are chatting with him like now?? I felt it rare things to happen and magical or am I overreacting? I don't know but yes that's him, I liked him very much think he is different but people change like season you see. I can't stop them, and what is the reason "I am seeing someone now 😁👍👍👍" that's what he said. So what is the next? I change the way I am to him but clearly he didn't get it. Fine..human being!!! Well tomorrow am gonna do my last message as a friend after that is gonna be totally one way convo...no more the ehehe and ahahaha. 

I am always letting go someone for someone but no one ever let go someone for me? And I don't understand why? So I decided to take it as it is and move on as I always do. And chill is my mantra for now..

Good night folks! 

The end of 2013 - Beginning of 2014

Likewise, i was a slow crow did not update any since last September. I am not too sure if really someone reading my blog or following me, but after September tons of shitty things happen. I really don't wish to say or write anything about coz it did break my heart in a way. For me whatever happens in 2013 is remain as it is, not even memories i don't even claim that. It came and left, and maybe there is reason why it happen. Well, i do have good year 2013 manage to hook up with agency, not as bad as i thought i am slowly picking and never thought my boss have a high regards on me. I am hoping for a better year 2014, i want to venture in other country for experience. I am not gonna stay in this company for a donkeys years (nope) most probably i will move out end of this year or by early next year. Is my plan for now, god bless me!. To those whom are still in that new year mood, happy new year and for those who think new year is just another year of challenge welcome to the club!

The end of #40Daysofdating

Am sure every single 20'ish following this blog, so the last posting was last Friday which is just ended. So what i learn from the whole blog, are they really in love? or is all in the name of experiment? As per my prediction they two did not end up as couple and break up as a friend...hmm..strange feeling why? coz how can he / she gonna look at each other after they slept, had sex, kissed and others stuff! And i don't know how they gonna do about it, but you will understand from this whole thing is old fashion is still the new thing! I agreed to it, nothing can be as old fashion romance. All this 40 days shit, nah it never work like that. Love is something to feel willingly not forcefully, so it don't work such. I feel sorry for Jessica if you watch the video, she totally sound like she gonna cry anytime soon. All this sorry never heal any, is just bittersweet! Well am following tim & jess instagram and i saw they were posting some picture of them..well selfies! Whatever it is i hope all the best for both of them, i adore them coz of the creativity skills and yes the project i truly appreciate they ended such than some fairytale shit! The video as per below:-

Day 40: Disney World from 40 Days of Dating on Vimeo.

Perfection w/o Expectations

Recently am obsessed with this blog called http://fortydaysofdating.com/ the reason being the way is documented,i love romantic stuff but my kinda romantic gotta make sense i don't believe in fairy tale no doubt i was then (in my younger days) am not too sure if this two people will end up together coz this whole idea based on project and done in April - May if am not mistaken. Anyway is just an amazing blog to read and that for 40 days i suppose, where they gonna head with this blog or what is next i only know after 40 days. I adore the dude Tim, well his honesty and he think pretty practical and logic even though at times it sound very male ego (you know what i mean). Where else Jessie on the other hand, give in all she can to make this project a success i salute her guts, patient and believe! Simply amazing I totally call this as Perfection w/o Expectations!

Day 33: Hand-holding from 40 Days of Dating on Vimeo.

p/s i pull all above pics & video from their vimeo & FB obviously.

my work

Okie, yesterday is the day i was overwhelmed with my emotional drama.  Recently i move from NST to my current place (not gonna say where and what okie)the reason why i join i wanna learn something that i want for so long. For my surprise i don't have much to do, am actually pretty free. I don't want to say much but that what is happening currently, am feeling very much relaxed not that am complaining actually i like it. To be honest i felt less stress and i want more, i think i gotta take it slow and steady. Am actually telling myself 2 years is the max am gonna spend that's it and i want to join broadcasting. You see i never get the hype or boredom of broadcasting i wanna drown myself in broadcasting not that am a fan of TV yet i wanna do this coz earlier it was screwed coz of someone! Or something with marketing i think i will enjoy coz it involve lots of planning, managing and event! i really want a piece of it,after all the experience i have i can rock it! Yay you can do it!!!

p/s:the image i google it..not as mine!

Daddy's day

Happy Father's Day to all the dad in the world and as well my papa "wherever he is" we love you and we miss you! Thanks for all the support and love you have given us...

Posterous closing down

Am sure all heard by now that posterous is closing down, sadly yes it confirm and i already back up all my post. I used to update my blog (as in blogspot)from posterous,so now i need back here to write. Lots of memories from posterous coz i have couple of followers compare here. Am gonna missed them, just don't understand why they need to shut it down when they can continue the service. Anyway am back to spill over my feeling in my column hope you guys didn't miss me LOL! Even if you there is no much people missing me too http://thenextweb.com/twitter/2013/02/15/the-posterous-rides-away-as-in-shuts-down-april-30t/